I will never forget the moment for as long as I live.
I was sitting with my spiritual father and expounding to him all the things that the Holy Spirit had been teaching me about the Church, “ministry”, God’s order and how the People of God had to release their current paradigm and migrate to a Kingdom function.
As I was sharing, I realized, “He’s not hearing me!” I literally shut down in mid-sentence. What was the use in speaking if it was not being received? The conversation moved on to another topic without so much as a glitch. It was as if I had not even been talking.
I was a bit confused and, quite frankly, a bit offended. Here was a man whom I deeply loved and respected. I was used to pouring out my heart and him hearing (and responding) to every word. I couldn’t understand what was going on in this particular case.
Long story short, it was perhaps 3 months later, when he approached me and shared how that Father had spoken to remove himself from “pastoral ministry” and the religious organization, church paradigm. He began to reiterate back to me the things that I had spoken to him during our initial conversation.
Okay…..now I was really discombobulated!
So, when I finally got beyond myself and petitioned Father, “What’s up with all that?” The Holy Spirit began to speak to me and reveal some things. I have to admit, it wasn’t exactly the answer I had anticipated.
It was revealed to me that I was a spiritual elitist. In approaching my spiritual father, I had moved beyond truly sharing revelation that the Spirit had revealed to me and moved into the soulical realm of wanting to convince and persuade him to jump on board with all I had heard/seen. His immediate response to what I was saying would serve as the approval in my own heart that what I had heard was, indeed, accurate.
I did not recognize it at the time of speaking to him, but, I had the wrong attitude and spirit in presenting it to him. Oh, man, I wanted so desperately for him to see it; hear it; enter into it; abide by it.
In hindsight, it was a ludicrous assumption on my part. This man had listened to Father since before I had been born. He had sown so incredibly much into my life, in every way, and, I doubt that I would have been in any position to see/hear anything from Father had it not been for my spiritual father’s love, teaching and patience.
It was one thing for me to leave all I had known in order to follow Father in the way He was directing. It was quite another for a man such as my spiritual father to do so. He had always pursued Father as He directed and always, as needed, abandoned reputation, comfortable circumstances and what he thought he knew for what the Spirit was revealing. This time would be no different as the myriad of other times he had migrated. It would according to what Father revealed to him and in the proper timing.
I should have followed the example of both my spiritual father and the Father of my spirit when it came to sharing the latest, greatest revelation that I had received. Neither ever delivered a word, principle or revelation and then attempted to force me into receiving it or entering into it. They were always gracious, kind, patient and merciful in their expectations on my response.
I realized it was my pride and need to be affirmed in what I was hearing/seeing that drove me to the attempted usurping of my spiritual father’s ability and responsibility in hearing/seeing for himself. Such spiritual elitism and thinking you have achieved a certain spiritual height that no one can relate to carries with it some nasty implications and consequences. It is NOT the way of our Lord nor of His Kingdom. We prophesy in part. He had the complete picture. Yet, He knew his disciples wouldn’t “get it” until the proper timing.
Proverbs 20:12 declares:
The hearing ear and the seeing eye—the Lord has made both of them.
This is the case, both in the natural creation and the new creation!
Unless Father gives the spiritual eyes to see, the spiritual ears to hear and the born again spirit the capacity to receive it, people are not going to be able to get it. That’s okay!
The worst thing that anyone can do when delivering a word or revelation they think they have received from God is elevate themselves for having received it and put down or condemn those who are not yet able to do so. Father only requires the humble delivery of the message from the messenger. He does not need the herald to further explain or generate a response to the communication. Father sends His Word and He fully trusts it to fulfill its purpose! Any true messenger sent from Father should do the same.
If the component of spiritual persuasion is not resident within the spoken word of initial delivery, (that’s a fancy way of saying, authority) no good will come from pressing the matter through the soulish powers of reason, emotion and attempting to beat the will of the intended seers/hearers into submission. Any word from Father is a container, a seed. It contains the Life of God within it but it must find the proper soil in order to produce. Paul said, one sows, one waters……God gives the increase.
There have been many times that others have shared things with me that I just didn’t get. Sometimes, the word takes root in my spirit and heart and springs forth. Other times, it is revealed to be inaccurate. Most of the time it takes time to germinate.
I keep this in mind when I am the one delivering the message. Since the incident with my spiritual father, my prayer is that only the words I speak that are ordained by Father carry any weight in the eyes/ears of the hearer and that anything spoken out from me as their source would fall powerless. I know that one day, I will have to give account to Father for being positioned to influence the lives of others. I want to be sure that I do not have to answer for attempting to manipulate and coerce people to what I think they may need to see/hear.
One final addendum: I cannot express how potent the safety and security is in being related to a spiritual family who help judge, receive, assimilate and appropriate words of prophecy and the like. Over the years, the intimacy of spiritual family relationships has both safeguarded us from inaccurate words and amplified the impact of accurate words. The peace that this